Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Are You Stressed?

You could definitely say that stress has been the main theme in my life for the past week or so. I have had a couple people actually ask me if I was stressed because I seemed a little tense. I could blame it all on the final exams that are coming up in less than 2 weeks, the fact that I am losing muscle but gaining weight, I bombed my last exam, didn't spend enough time on my last paper (I know it could have been so much better than it really was), or all of these things together. But to be honest I think that there is one other resent drama in my life that is stressing me out the most. I went in to talk to my adviser the other day and she suggested (for various reasons) that I not go into the field that I am currently majoring in. I understood her reasoning and agreed to an extent, but to be honest it kind of hurt. I mostly felt bad for letting my parents down. In high school I always envisioned myself as the perfect college student with my head deep in my books...but that's not how things turned out. SO I am in the process of deciding what I am going to be "when I grow up." I am a girl who likes to have a plan and so not even having a solid backup plan really is stressing me out. I have thought about going into photography and my mother and I both agree that I would do well in some type of counseling, but to be honest I really don't know what to do! So for all of those ever-so-much-wiser people out there, I would love to hear your suggestions!

And for those that live in the barren desert, don't freeze out there ;)


  1. Ah, the joys of growing up. Aren't they great? When I had to declare a major I started freaking out, and then one day I was talking to some people, and they told me something that is very simple and very profound. I was lamenting to them about picking a major, and they said, in essence, that it doesn't matter which direction you are going as long as you are going in a direction. You can always change it later. And all of a sudden the world became less scary to me. A beautiful thing about life is that we are allowed to change our minds! And no knowledge is ever wasted. So my suggestion would be just try something out. Or try a few things out. And if you pick something and don't like it, don't stress too much, cause life always changes. Good luck my dear!

  2. Thanks Krystal, that was exactly what I needed to hear :D

  3. Alex... I feel like I was reading something I went through a few years ago. I got more than halfway through my major (Business) before I decided to change my "plan". One thing is for sure, you don't have to decide right now what you want to do for the rest of your life. General classes are what give you exposure to different ideas and careers. Who knows, maybe you'll end up doing something completely different than what you expected! In the end, everything works out the way it is supposed to and you will look back and wonder why you were stressing so much :) Enjoy each day and don't try to get caught up in "growing-up" because you need to enjoy this time in your life! You will never be able to go back and re-live this time.

    Don't worry so much about boys and just have fun! Of course, you should be dating and having fun, but you are only in your first semester and you are still so young! You still have many experiences that you need to have before you meet that special someone. :) College life gives you the opportunity to get to know yourself! You're away from family and are alone a lot of the time which gives you ample time to find out your strengths and your weaknesses.

    Sorry for the novel :) Just take the time to enjoy this time and continue to pray! Heavenly Father doesn't want you to be confused. Best of luck with finals! Just think, it could be worse - Kip puts in 15+ hours a day studying for his finals - with no breaks. I look forward to having a husband again, just in time for Christmas. :)

    Lots of love,


  4. Alisha-
    Thanks so much! I am so thankful for family like you. You have been such a huge blessing in my life and I could never thank you enough.
    I like the novel :) I'll do my best! Thanks again! I miss you both SOOOO much!!!
    Alex :)