Saturday, May 28, 2011

11:06 p.m.

My grandmother was the sweetest lady you would ever know. I have never heard her ask for anything or ever complain. She always sent us cards on birthdays, Valentine's, Christmas, and any other special occasion you could think of. My grandma had a strong heart and worked hard to make everyone happy and know that they were loved. The first time I went to the temple she was there to walk me through and make sure I knew what came next and now the temple means even more to me.

When I wear my grandma's earrings today I will remember her and all that she did for me.

The last memory I have of her isn't a happy one, but I have many other memories to look back on and remember her beautiful smile.

I love you Grandma, I hope you knew that.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Dear Sister

Growing up with a bunch of older half brothers and some younger brothers was fun, but I always wanted a sister. I have a sister, a half sister to be technical, but we have always been in different stages in life growing up and she lives on the East coast so I don't get to see her very much. Now she's moving overseas because of an opportunity with her husband's job. I love Mindi and now that she is moving even further away I probably won't be able to see her for a few years. I just wish that I had been better at making sure that when I did get to see her that I was spending that time wisely. Instead of wishing for a sister that would be more convenient to be close to, I wish that I had tried harder to be close to the sister that I have.

I remember growing up and thinking how beautiful Mindi was. She is still beautiful! When I wanted to start wearing a lot of make-up to 'fit in' when I was in middle school, my mom reminded me of how pretty Mindi was even though she didn't wear tons of make-up. Mindi let her natural beauty show.

Mindi and her husband, Colby, have brought two sweet, sweet boys to this earth. Jack and Gavin are not only adorable, but so kind, sweet, and loving especially for being so young. Mindi has also become another role model of the type of mother that I would like to become once it is my time to marry and start a family.

This has been a huge lesson for me. Sometimes I get nervous when we have another addition to the family. I'm afraid that they won't like me because I'm just the obnoxious, chatty younger sister or that its hard to relate when we are in totally different stages of life. To be honest, one of the reasons I chose to go to school in Logan because most of my older siblings came to school here and I felt like maybe I could get closer to them somehow by going to school here. It didn't really work out the way I thought it would, but I love Logan anyways.

So don't let insecurity or assumptions get in the way of getting closer to the ones that you love. You'll regret it and although we will be able to see our loved ones after we die, that shouldn't give us the excuse not to use our time here on the earth to grow close to them as well.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Summer Adventure #1

I was home for about 5 days (it was weird, I won't lie) and came back "home" today. After work I went to my friend, Nate's, apartment because tomorrow is his birthday and I figured we would celebrate it tonight since he would be gone tomorrow. I took over cake mix I got from my grandmother's house. The cake turned out really well (complete surprise to me) and we played the most epic game of Parcheesi EVER!

Well in cleaning up our cake mess, well just cleaning the boys' apartment kitchen in general, I took Cameron, Nate's roommate, and Nate by surprise and splashed the them with water and then I ran to lock myself in the bathroom. I knew that I was in deep trouble and if I came out that I would be soaked in an instant, but I couldn't lose. The only way of escape was through the small window on the opposite side of the door. Cameron had already guessed that I would try and go out that way and had been previously sat outside the window staring at me like the biggest creep. Moments later it got a little quiet and I could tell that the boys were trying to figure out how to get into the bathroom so I had to think quick. There hadn't been a lot of noise outside the bathroom so I slid it open and listened. Nothing but the wind; it was time. I carefully popped the screen out and popped my head out as far as I could. The window was pretty high on the wall and the window well was very small. Looking out I figured it would be a miracle if I could pull myself up into the well let alone get out. I used my rock climbing skills to see different spots to place my feet to push myself higher into the well. It took me a minute, but I finally pulled myself out through the 18"-ish window and the window well not much larger.

I thought that was quite the adventure but writing it down doesn't make it seem quite as exciting. After getting out I just walked into the backyard and laid in the hammock waiting to see how long it took them to find me and discover that I was no longer in the bathroom.

Until the next adventure.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Moving Day

Today Carrie left me... and Selena and so many other friends will be leaving tomorrow too. Its really sad and heartbreaking because many of them won't be coming back to school in the fall. The apartment is so empty! I am really going to miss Carrie. She got me through some really hard times and was a wonderful example to me. Hopefully when I go up to Jackson Hole I'll bump into her somehow.

On a happier apartment and a guys apartment downstairs have been pretty good friends since the day we all moved up here. You could say that they are kind of our older brothers. Well after most of them got engaged I stopped visiting for the most part. I truly feel like I lost some good friends, but it was just awkward going over there being the only single girl not cuddled up to a hunk of a man.

Well today was the last day for final exams so everyone who isn't staying for the summer had to move out. The guys downstairs have been cleaning all day and one of the guys, Stu, continued coming up to give Keira (she's the only roommate staying for the summer with me) and I stuff he didn't want anymore. After taking an invintory this is what we got:
  • 8 Pool Noodles (not sure what I'm going to do with those...)
  • 2 Lamps
  • 1 blender (mine)
  • 1 portable heater (Keira's)
  • 3 boxes of fabric softener
  • 3 containers of popcorn kernals
  • 1 box of microwave popcorn
  • 1 bag of potatoes
  • 1 container of shortening
  • 2 containers of cooking oil
  • 1 opened box of Triscuits
  • a few boxes of Cup of Noodles
  • 1 Hanna Montana pillow (I'm not keeping that! It would be in the trash if it was my choice)
I'm sure there's more to come like the eagle statue Stu just brought up, but you get the idea.

This is kind of a answer to prayers since I'm so tight on money and slowly running out of food. Regarding the other stuff they gave us....I don't know what will happen to it.

Happy packing everyone!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


Heavenly Father continues to humble me again and again. I think I know what's up and I think that I know what I need and what is best for me. Nope, He does. He honestly gave me a chance to prove to myself that I knew what is best for me. I failed just so you know. Good to know I have a Father who is still willing to help me out after I mess up.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

8 Months

One of the things I have noticed the most this year is how fast time flies by. One minute your walking on a college campus, a freshman once again, and the next you're going to church for the last time with your first student ward. Wow.

I have learned so much this year. Mostly I've learned about myself. I discovered what I really like, dislike, look for in friends and boys, what I want for the future, and if I really do KNOW the truthfulness of this gospel. I hope I don't sound like I'm bragging or anything, but I really feel like I've matured a lot this year. I still enjoy coloring every once in a while, watching my favorite Disney princess movie (Sleeping Beauty), and fantasizing about a romance that only happens in the classiest movies. What is different is that doing all of these "childish" activities has different reasons and meaning. Coloring relieves stress and lets my mind wander about happy memories. Watching Sleeping Beauty reminds me of the earthly and heavenly home I left not too long ago (I really do find symbolism in that movie related to the Plan of Salvation). With the fantasizing...well I'm a girl and I figure its healthy. Plus I think I deserve a little romance and fun in my life so why not think about what I would like to happen and then be surprised when nothing goes according to plan?

Anyways, I encourage you all too look back at the greatest thing you learned this past year. Write it down if you haven't already and remind yourself often. I've found that this is very helpful in the good and bad times and just fun too reflect on.

Well its late and Carrie is FINALLY home!

God bless.